Going to people wedding is not a good thing because every time I'm there I  feel pressure especially the bride have the same age as me. Another part that worry me is I over heard my parent conversation the other day, they plan to match make either for me or my bro. It not a good news at all!! There goes another pressure. What I'm gonna do? Explain to my mom that I lost hope with malay guys and was hoping to find the right guy and not malay? I don't want to get married because I scared of commitment? Haish~ A BAD IDEA... *scrap it away*

Mom always blame on me and say I don't know how to take care a guy heart? Is it true? Is that why that 2 guys left me and went to other girl? I always calm myself down by saying they are not the one for me that why they left me. But what the real reason I got know idea. Maybe something wrong with me hahaha. Haish how i wish every year I getting younger instead of older. Well I will just focus on my work for now and put all this crap thing aside after all be single is the best =) save money and more time to spend with family and friends ~