Sometime we can't control things to be the way we want it and that is life. Lately my life is so messy and I lost my sense of direction. I don't want to lose my close friend but i guess i need to sacrifice it. It hurt badly. I got no choice cause I don't want it to happen again... and i don't want to be the third party in people relationship because I've been through there and the feeling is sucks. Seeing your love one been taken away by someone is not a good experience. I don't want her to face that so I will sacrifice our friendship. It complicated and I'm not that strong especially quarrel with my best friend... it so hard on me. I just breakdown in school. Cause i just don't know what to do. Life get messier day by day. I guess I really need to be strong and forget him although my heart feel heavy. Knowing him for 5 years and treasure our friendship. He always there for me and the one who understand me. I treasure our latest meet up... although things turn into something unexpected it will always be my sweet memory.

I need to find my strength once again. I guess korea trip will heal my wound somehow. If not all at least bit by bit.
Thanks to my DMNT bro's for keep myself busy with dota nowadays .. at least it help me to forget bout the prob for awhile~

get messed up today I'll be okay tomorrow ~
Saturday, September 10, 2011 3:32 AM